ive been really thinking through my choices for my future next year.i wanted to becomee a pilot when i was young,but after seeing myself perform averagely during previous years in secondary school,i feel a sense of not being able to achieve it.its been a freaking dream of mine,so why not chase it right???thats what i hate about myself,giving empty promises.furthermore,i wanted to follow my cousin's footsteps.ive been in his primary school,east view primary,his secondary school,tanjong katong secondary,and i wish to go to singapore poly like he did.take civil engineering as he had done.do so bloody well that he was able to enroll in NTU.but then again,i feel like i also wish to join the business sector, get rich,be someone who uses initiative and takes every single opportunity he finds.but then again,im not the latter,i cower in almost every opportunity.i dont even dare say hello!!!i really gotta boost my confidence soon or im a dead piece of bacon.and because i cant make up my mind,i was told that its better to ust go to jc cos at least we'll get some foundations right before being fully fledged to go to university.so what now?