Sunday, June 1, 2008
after a while,her health seems to be getting slightly better.if only she didnt stop eating two weeks ago,all this wont happen.... i always feel that im restricting my emotions,and that my friends wont know the real me.what isit called,the fear of portraying your feelings?argh,heck. i feel more at home when no ones home.weird huh?thats wats been happening since wednesday,and its all because im given the freedom of using the computer.yay!!! i just dun find any need to scream out.yeah,i do laugh out loud,but its still quite a conservative laugh.so what is wrong?am i afraid of showing a bad impression?is that it?
i also usually think through things in my mind,never discussing it.as they say,smart people think before they act(like im that smart x-D)
but maybe its the fact that im feeling inferior than what i felt in primary school.being outsmarted,being outplayed,the works.
and then again,i ask myself.am i emo?
no,thats the last thing i wanna become.
so what is my behaviour like?i always want to be sociable,but then again,im afraid of rejection. if i say im quiet,im not so much like shona.im not conservative,cos i also participate in trash talk.
so what am i like???i guess once i find this answer,it'll be when i find enlightenment so readers,if you are reading this,this blog is basically a blog for me to express what i am constantly thinking of,which i do not usually discuss in the open.for my friends reading this,take it as a chance to know how exactly i think,and maybe you can help me sort it all out ;-)
muntaquim was hungry @ 7:51 PM. + + +
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